Sorry for moaning!

Having not posted for some weeks I had hoped that there would have been great improvements in my emotional and physical wellbeing so as I could write a somewhat more humorous and positive post. 

The past weeks have been quite tough with the dreaded and unwelcome onset of lymphoedema! Which has been a great cause of emotion, worry and concern. This has meant yet further hospital appointments, examinations, blood tests and scans. 

After seeing a lymphoedema specialist it has been decided that part of the treatment and therapy needed is to be fitted with a compression sleeve! This is something I have at present been advised to wear throughout the day, every day! jOY! So now I await it's delivery!

Just when I thought I was doing amazingly well throughout this diagnosis, tests and surgeries followed by the chemo and feeling so positive and in control of my state of mind, it would seem together with the lymphoedema and build up of a variety of side effects from a combination of the surgery, chemotherapy and the medication my emotional state of mind is at present being tested to it's limit!

Added to my worries are the fact that in a matter of weeks i shall be financially compromised too when i have to accept the fact of being forced into having to go on to half pay even though I have yet to endure another two more cycles of chemo!

I try not to complain but the following are just some of the things I have been putting up with from day to day! 

Aching limbs,
Peeling hands,
Sore feet, 
Numb toes,
Numbness in tips of fingers,
Constipation,
diarrhoea,
Lose of taste,
Dry eyes,
Dry skin, 
Swollen arm,
Aching joints,
Aching ribs,
Sore mouth,
Tightness in arm,
Tightness, aching in breast,
Stiffness in shoulder.

One or two things at a time is manageable but an accumulation of many, only then needs that one more small thing placed on top to bring everything crashing down!

Nick is unbelievably the most amazing person in my life! Throughout everything, he is there constantly by my side doing all he possibly can, whenever he can or whenever I'll allow him to! He couldn't physically or emotionally give any more support than he already does! He has and is being pushed to the limits and to be honest tries far too hard at times! 

Always thinking of others and never of himself he has carried a lot of weight along this journey we have walked together. It has been made all the easier because of his strength and support. He is the most beautiful, selfless, kind hearted man I have ever come to know and I count my lucky stars that we have each other's unconditional love for all time! 

Words are not enough to express how thankful I am to be so blessed to have someone so wonderful in my world and to know without doubt that I am truly loved and cared for and that I too have the most wonderful satisfaction and  tremendous overwhelming feeling of love for someone so special to my heart.